Go to sleep! Embrace the darkness. Accept that you are going to have to spend some time in silence with your thoughts. She is going to be there. Waiting for you, like a disease that has grown to become a part of you. Like a light, guiding your way through the darkness, burning you.
“Decisions sometimes prove to be the hardest to make, especially when it’s a choice between where you should be and where you really wanted to be.” – unknown
What is your wish? What is your goal? What is your dream? Why aren’t you running? Chasing your dream like you are crazy, trying to make it become real?